My instant thoughts

She left me after 1 year of relationship. Since then, I have fallen in love with her. I felt as I have never fall in love before. The pain of knowing that she left me and we can not be together made me realise how important she was in my life. I always thought she was more than I could ask for a friend. That slowly made me feel insecure about myself and when there is insecurities, then relationship can not prosper. And suddenly, without knowing (or I would say I should know) the relation just ended and I was alone.  You know the importance of relationship most when you are not in one.  It is not that we don’t talk anymore. It is just that we are not in realtionship and we know the fact that we can’t be together anymore. I have learn to respect our individual life and I think slowly we are feeling good about it. We both are happy in some way. It’s been two years and she has a new boyfriend and knowing that makes me feel more happy. When you love her, you want to be happy b...

The lane are changing, people are laughing I am the one, I can do better She was there when I was enjoying the dance I forgot to take the love with me, I’ll do it later When the sun don’t shine, It’s all night My girl has left me and it’s all right She reminded me of my days when I was the king I could do what I desire Back then, I was a raging fire When life gives you a push and you fall It’s hard to stand again For only the brave have conquered the world I can not bear the pain Fishing in the river, I can not catch one How do people become rich? Knowledge is the key but where is the lock? I am done What the........!

                 Interpretation of love “When neither of you need each other, when there’s no great dependency on the other person. There’s just admiration, there’s respect, there’s companionship and there’s a space of ease between you.” People tend to burden their partners with the responsibility of making them happy and that’s where relationships go wrong. “You somehow always judge yourself based on how much love or attention you’re getting from your partner. Your relationship suffers just a little bit, and your self esteem and your image take a beating, which is not a good thing,”

 I don’t have a dream to be a writer or a blogger. I just want to write. I have come across many people who want to be known face in whatever they do. I am not that kind of person but rather I want to be that mystery man that everybody knows of but no one have seen me. Maybe I am shy, maybe I am introvert, maybe it’s the reason I like to be unknown but the fact is I like to be this way.   This blog makes me happy and helps me to express my feeling and any thoughts into the word. I can share to the world and I feel relief by doing so. This blog is about what comes to my mind, an instant thought coming when I am doing something. I write about it then so, my thought are written into words at the moment, not later. My life is not doing well at the moment. I am somehow struggling with my life. So, in this period of my life, writing is helping me somehow. It may be small change but it’s helping. Empty mind is a devil’s mind. Writing has helped me to consume my leisure ...

 Things happen randomly for no reason at all, but they create opportunities, and you learn from those opportunities-even the missed ones. The question is, can you recognize that next opportunity when it matters the most?                    -When we first met (2018)

I  am watching champion’s league (Manchester United vs Barcelona). It just came to my mind suddenly how we, asian fan, have to go through many sleepless night to watch football games. Thanks to Russia, we were able to watch world cup easily.                                        It is hard to be true football fan if you are in asian country.  It is mostly because of different time zone, most of the matches like EPL, la liga, serie A, etc and of course the champion’s league are played in the night and many true fan have to wake up at night to watch their favourite teams play. We, the asian fans, are really crazy about football.     But there is another side of asian fans also. I have met football fans who have knowledge and are passionate about football but rarely watches matches. There are people who support the European teams that are winning and it’s the o...

What would be the poem about if I ever write one? I thought poem as only the sentences with a rhyming words. But it was not. So, anyhow I tried to write and for a first time, this is how it goes. When you have nothing to lose it’s time that you choose to stay in the same mud  Or rise as a beautiful bud It is not always the same, For the time can not be tame Be the man of your word Don’t take the loss, you can’t afford Work for the life that you’d imagined You are not Aladin who had a gene So, move out of your comfort zone Or else you will be taking only the bone Work hard till you achieve something Some play, some dance and some sing But you do what you want to do Forget the people, there is only you Listen to your heart, take a decision with your brain If negative thoughts come to you, let it rain Then the sun will rise again This time, with life you can’t bargain It gives you happy as well as sorrow Be in present, tomorrow can’t be borrow Everyone ne...

I think I am a loser. I was an  above average student as I would describe myself. I was a bright student as my friends would describe. Back in school, I was good especially in maths (others felt it was difficult)  as well as other subject. My mind was sharp at learning new things. My mind would pick up anything my teachers taught me and I would not forget that. I used to read novels in fifth grade when other student wouldn’t even read their course books. I loved exams because i would get good marks. Not only studious, I loved to play sports also like football, table tennis ,basketball and chess. I was having good time at school but what I was not doing was thinking about my future. It was not going to be that easy always. While in school, one thing that every one was doing but I did not was to prepare myself for the future. It was not going to be always the same. It was not always the marks I got in exam. I passed my schooling with good marks and went on to study hotel mana...

I wonder what to write for my first blog. I had not written anything before. I am not much of a writer. So, it just came into my mind one day that I should write my own blog but didn’t thought what my blog should be all about and I had no idea of why would people write a blog.I thought blog was whatever you write about whatever you want. Then came the process to know how to make a blog. I googled and found it much easier to make a blog than I had thought of. I made my blog but did not know of any content to write about.  I wondered what to write for my first blog. The thing is that I want to write something or anything. I think writing makes me feel free and thought I could write anything in my blog that comes into my mind. But whenever I tend to write something, my mind is not working with me. It’s just nothing. And I can’t stay like that. I have to write something so, I thought to write this as my first blog. I don’t know how this works but what is important is that I have wr...